When the right one comes along
Have you ever wanted something so badly that you just weren't
willing to wait for it? Patience runs thin when we are in a
hurry and want things right now; especially when it comes to
love. It seems we just can't accept ourselves as we should and
just enjoy our own company. We honestly do need to know
ourselves before we try to get to know someone else too
intimately. By being secure in our own self-esteem and
confidence, we are able to go places and enjoy things, even when
we might be alone, because we truly are our own best friend.
Rose had been married and divorced twice, and with that track
record, she was very reluctant to get into any kind of new
relationship. Most men started out treating her in a very kind,
very compassionate way, but after marriage, it seemed things
changed and she just felt as if she was being taken advantage
of.
She did keep dating, however, because the one thing in life that
she didn't want was to be alone. Her mother, Alice, had lived a
life of loneliness and Rose wasn't about to follow in her
footsteps. At six years old, her father died from an
unforeseeable illness, leaving her mother to raise three
children on her own. Without much money, Alice was forced to go
out into the workplace making a living to support her little
family and without much education, she ended up in minimum wage
jobs that barely made ends meet. Rose was left alone with her
other sisters quite often, and as an adult, she longed for male
affection and companionship.
Her one goal in life was to find a man. She wanted this more
than anything else, especially since she had never really known
the love of a man before. Her first husband she married at 18,
which enabled her to get out of the house and start her own
place in life. He was a 17-year-old guy in the military, so
somewhat like her mother, she ended up alone much of the time,
which was certainly not what she had in mind. Joe would write
her letters and call her on the telephone, which was some
comfort, but it wasn't the same as waking up together in each
other's arms. Being such an immature age, he also succumbed to
the advances of other women while he was away, which ended the
marriage after just two years. Rose just couldn't deal with
knowing that he was playing around with other women and she
wasn't about to sit home and wait while that was going on.
Out of money and love, Rose moved back home with Alice and her
little sisters, only to be told over and over how foolish she
was to move out in the first place and marry such a loser guy.
Alice had never liked Joe, and had never minded letting her know
it.
Once again, Rose met a very good looking fellow who she knew
must be the right one, so she married him. Again, he was
unfaithful to her and she divorced him. She was ready to just
give up on ever having anyone who would be true to her.
Rose wondered if she could ever hold onto a man again, but that
didn't stop her from marrying the first man who came along. He
was an older man and a business owner with money, so that was a
deciding factor in her decision to rush into marriage. She
needed emotional and financial stability and this was what she
was waiting for. The problem with this one is that she didn't
really love him as a wife should love a husband. He was such a
nice man though, and going back to her need to have a male
figure in her life, she married him after just dating him just 5
weeks. What a diamond ring he gave her! It was the most
beautiful piece of jewelry she had ever seen!
About two years later their first baby came along, and such a
pretty baby she was. Little Diana was everything to Rose, so
they decided to have another child, and Jake was born not long
afterwards. Here she was, a housewife in a beautiful home with
two beautiful children and a loving husband; but he was a
husband she didn't love and that left her with an emptiness she
had never known.
One day, she decided to get involved with a local civic group in
her town. She met a good-looking guy who was close to her age.
He was such a friendly man and so charismatic. Rose had never
met anyone like him and she was immediately drawn to Charles. He
wasn't married and they had endless chats at the meetings she
attended, but she felt herself growing closer and closer to him.
What would she do? Here she was falling in love with the man of
her dreams. Finally someone she had waited for all of her life
had appeared, but it was too late because she already was set in
a marriage with small children and felt there was no way out.
Rose went to these civic meetings every week, meeting Charles
there and always going for coffee afterwards, but nothing more.
After her first two failed marriages and her ex-husband's
infidelities, she could not go down this road herself. She
remembered the hurt she felt and just could not inflict this on
her children or her devoted husband. So, she remained "friends"
with Charles for several years before the time came when he
asked her to decide between the life she had and the life of
love he could offer. But, so afraid of losing little Diana and
Jake, she declined him over and over until finally he left town
and she never heard from him again. As the old song tells us, it
truly is "sad to belong to someone else when the right one comes
along..."
Our friend Rose was just in too big of a hurry to "get hitched".
She felt incomplete without a man, and this was partly due to
the absence of a father in her life. By not growing up around
men, she had a deep need to fill that void, but had she
recognized this as the reason or basis for all these
relationships, perhaps Rose might have made better choices. We
do deserve the best and the best certainly is worth waiting for.
Patience is such a virtue that, as a whole, we all have to work
on in life. By not waiting for the right husband (or wife), we
are doing ourselves an injustice. By marrying the wrong people
just to get out of the house or keep from being alone, we
sacrifice our very souls by living with people we really don't
love (or sometimes even like) that much. Always be fair to
yourself, and true to your heart and feelings and you will never
find yourself alone in this world.