I am a Terrorist!
As soon as I entered the plane of an international airline that
was to leave for Paris from Houston, I realized that, inside the
plane, I was the only Pakistani amongst the other passengers. I
placed my handbag in the luggage box, and floated on the
comfortable seat. Air Hostess placed the glass of Orange juice
on the specific place designed for it and now she was serving
the other passengers.
There was one month tiredness on me, so I started feeling sleepy
the next moment, BUT a sudden thought WOKE ME up. I thought,
since I am the only Pakistani traveling in this plane, so if
during the Flight, "Something" happened to the plane and all the
other passengers including me were killed, the next day all the
world media and newspapers will be highlighted with the news
that "Airplane destroys On Flight in a suicide blast, all
passengers including the Pakistani suicide bomber killed". With
this news some proofs of my being Terrorist will also be
provided, for instance that from the crashed airplane an
unharmed passport was found, cameras fixed at the Houston
airport reveal that the Terrorist after getting his boarding
card, went in and out of the Briefing Lounge in a state of
restlessness and continued smoking, He was seen off by two
Pakistanis whose looks were of some terrorists; he whispered and
murmured with them for some time. Some other solid proofs of him
being the terrorist are also found, one of them is that he was
seen several times passing by a religious "Madrassah", although
the Madrassah was opposite to his office but he could have opted
for some other route for his office. In some part of his life he
also grew a beard which he shaved off after two weeks because it
scratched. He was mostly seen by people offering Eid Prayers.
One big proof is that in his recent journey he changed one of
his routes, and its details are that he was to go from Paris to
New York and from New York to Toronto BUT; He went from Paris
straight to Toronto and then came from Toronto to New York!
I thought that in the presence of such solid proofs of my being
a terrorist, crack down against Pakistanis will be started in
several countries. On the other hand my friends in Pakistan (in
a state of surprise) will say to each other "Yaar! He didn't
seem to be like that, but who knows of a human being". The
Pakistani Government, to defend the international propaganda as
a result of this attacks will record there statement that it was
a totally personal act of terrorism so the cause should not be
related to Islam or Pakistan.With this my family will be
arrested, and possibly be handed over to America, a large scale
arresting will be done and with this it will however be agreed
upon that I had done the terrorism.
With these horror thoughts my sleep flew off, so in order to
backup myself I decided to make my thinking positive, I thought
that with these baseless and fake statements, how can the world
consider me as a terrorist? With these pin pointing, sensible
people won't ask there governments that why is someone being
declared as the culprit when the act is not yet proved? BUT my
positive thinking remained no longer because I remembered that
when the "Suspects" of 9-11 & 7-7, are declared as the
"Culprits", without any Judicial trials, why would in my case
all the formalities of Justice be fulfilled?
These of my thoughts pushed me back into the ditch of
depression. Now I had no other way out, except the one that I
should ask ALLAH (SWT) for help, so I closed my eyes and with
some Arabic verses I prayed to GOD that "O' GOD ,get this plane
to its destination safely and unharmed", but I recited these
Arabic verses in my heart, if I had recited them in a high voice
then with other passengers I would have also believed that I am
a terrorist.
This essay took me 1 hour to translate as the URDU was very
difficult,BUT i hope you'll understand it,pardon me for grammar
and tenses mistake,the main thing is that you understand what
the writer actaully meant.It is taken from "Rozne Dewaar"
written by Atta-ul-Haq Qasmi.