Self-Growth: Building Character And Integrity
It's been said that character is defined by what you do when you
think no one is watching. What an illuminating concept that is.
Most of us have a public face and a private face. There are
parts of ourselves we don't want the world to see. Typically, we
tend to hide the aspects that would not be viewed favorably by
society. Greed, lust, jealousy, pettiness, fear and so on. We
also tend to hide our weaknesses. No one needs to know that we
can wolf down a gallon of ice cream in an hour, do they? ;-)
I think most people are "good" at their core; decent, loving,
compassionate and kind. However, even those we perceive to be
good people are capable of unspeakable acts. How many times have
you heard a convicted murderer's family member or friend say, "I
just can't believe he would be capable of something like that.
It's so unlike him." The killer projected one identity to the
world, while secretly he was someone else entirely.
Okay, most of us are not murderers. Yet, even those of us who
would be considered "good people" often think nothing of
stealing, cheating on our spouses, or worse. What does that say
about our character? Is it wrong only if we get caught?
How many times have you done something that you probably
wouldn't have done if others had been there to see it? Would you
feel embarrassed if these things were brought to public
awareness? Did you act on your impulses only because you felt
sure no one would ever find out?
I've been thinking a lot about the concept of "sin" lately. What
is sin exactly? In the Christian religion, sin refers to that
which displeases (or dishonors) God. The Ten Commandments warn
us against adultery, theft, murder and more. Supposedly if you
follow that list, you will remain in God's good graces.
In some earth religions, there is only one commandment: Harm
None; which basically covers all angles in two words. Do nothing
that would cause harm to yourself or another. Seems simple
enough.
Yet, in both of these examples there are gray areas, aren't
there? Sometimes it's hard to tell what's right or wrong. If we
find money on the street and pick it up, is that stealing? Does
it make a difference if it was $5.00 or $500.00? If we lie to
protect someone's feelings, is that wrong? If we take some paper
clips home from the office, is that stealing? Does it "harm" the
company, really? If we flirt with someone other than our spouse,
or fantasize about them, is that cheating? Or is cheating only
the physical act of sexual intercourse?
In situations like these, how do we know the right course of
action? How do we balance integrity with our impulses and
desires? I think it can help to examine your motives and the
possible consequences. What is your intent in this situation?
What do you hope to gain from it? Could your actions harm
another, or yourself? If your actions became public knowledge,
would you be okay with that?
Maybe some of you are rolling your eyes at me right now,
thinking, "What's the big deal? So what if I take a few things
from work, or cheat on my wife? What they don't know won't hurt
them." That may be true, but doesn't it hurt you in the long
run? Don't those actions detract from the kind of person you
are? Don't they dim your inner light? If it's true that we are
all connected, then isn't it also true that harming another
means harming ourselves? By disrespecting others, we disrespect
ourselves and God.
Personally, I don't believe that God is angry and judgmental,
sitting up in the clouds waiting to cast us into the pits of
Hell for our transgressions. I do believe there will be a final
"review" of our lives, and we will have to answer for the things
we've done. But I think we will be our own judges. In the
deepest part of ourselves, we know right from wrong.
We're not perfect, and no one is expecting us to be. We all make
mistakes and do things we are later ashamed of. We are human,
after all. But there is a big difference between making a
mistake, and purposely doing something we know is wrong. We may
try to fool ourselves at times and justify our actions. Maybe
your husband doesn't pay attention to you, so you try to
convince yourself that it's okay to have an affair with a man
who does. Or your employer gives you a crappy raise, so you
decide to make up for it in other ways, like stealing supplies
or fudging your time sheet. They asked for it, right? You
certainly have the right to do these things, and probably no one
will stop you. Our greatest gift in life is Free Will.
Unfortunately, it is also often our greatest curse. There are
always consequences to our actions, whether they come now or
later.
In the end, it's all a matter of personal accountability. Do we
want to be a person of character, or not? It doesn't matter if
we get caught or not. What matters is that we are defined by our
actions. If I take something that doesn't belong to me, I am a
thief. If I cheat on my spouse, I am an adultress. If I don't
want to get caught, I probably shouldn't do these things in the
first place. The truth has a way of making itself known.