Have You Reached Your Full Human Potential?
Have You Reached Your Full Human Potential? by Lady Camelot
Have you reached your full human potential? By far, too many
souls have lived their lives wandering aimlessly about in
hopeless despair. Each day, people awaken to a new day but dwell
on the same problems from days, months, even years before. Worry
and anguish seem to top the lists of those constant
procrastinators and apprehensive individuals who would rather
give up on life than find the positive it has to offer us all.
I present a good example of the "full human potential:" Over 3
years ago, I found myself in a very harmful situation. Not only
was my life at stake, but my mentality, emotional sense and
overall well-being was on the brink of major catastrophic
malalignment. Here I sat -- an emotionless wasteland filled with
destructive thought patterns. Not only was my rational effected,
but my physical health was at a total loss. Bound to a
wheelchair, I was instructed to take a wide spectrum of
prescription drugs that were going to "help" me.
Day by day, I had to take pills that would possibly spark my
nerves to get me walking again; pills that would reduce muscle
spasms; pills that would "reroute" nerve signals; pills that
would line my stomach from all of the other pills; "happy" pills
that helped for my "depression;" pills that helped calm my
nerves; pills that stopped any seizures; pills that helped for
fluid retention; pills that stopped my nausea from all the other
pills....the list was endless.
I had to literally have people call me to remind me of which
pills I had to take next, or I'd forget to either take them or
take too many of them. Most of the time, I was a rolling zombie.
I couldn't sleep at night because of restless leg syndrome. I
couldn't sleep during the day because I was afraid I wouldn't
Beside the injury that left me permanently physically impaired,
my finances were in total shambles. I could no longer work the
labored jobs I was used to doing. This was and still is no
longer an option for me. Instead of freely driving whenever I
want to, I always have to let someone know when I'm going and
where I'm going...just in case my legs or arms decide to go out
on me. My left eye has recently been effected by my nerve damage
so when I peer at a computer screen or a familiar face, I have
to focus with my right eye; as double vision has become a
recurring event in my life. My back and buttocks tend to
sporadically get hit with shockwaves of electrical, spine
tingling numbness. When that happens, I can count on one or both
of my legs quitting on me. And it happens in some of the worst
of places too. I can go shopping at the local grocery store and
viola -- my leg simply stops working. Or better still, try going
to Sunday mass and suddenly I'm holding on to aisle pews and
railings because one or both legs decided they weren't going to
cooperate that day.
People will ask me, "how can you live like that?" That's simple.
I've learned to live to my fullest human potential. No, I can't
do all the things I used to do. But instead of focusing on all
the things that I "can't" do, I refocused my thinking on the
things that I "CAN" do.
A little dog taught me a valuable lesson in life. We had our
beloved "Bell" for nearly 5 years when she suddenly died of
amyloidosis. (An inherited disease) It was right after she died
that I experienced my first episode of paralysis. This came
shortly after our roof leaked and destroyed all of our
entertainment components in our built-in wall unit, and after I
lost my means of employment. What a time!
"Bell" was always the girl who came and perked me up and gave me
hope with her loving affection and undying devotion. I was
beside myself with grief. The first few days after she died, I
wasn't prepared to adopt another animal. But suddenly I had a
change of heart. My husband drove me two hours away to adopt a
new "girl." She wasn't Bell, but she gave me hope -- thus, I
named her "Hope." She made herself right at home and her
mannerisms were just like Bell's. We had chosen the perfect dog
to not only help us all get over our grief, but help me to get
on with my own life as well. As we watched her grow and become
an important part of our lives, I felt that I had to improve my
After nearly dying from a potent drug-induced seizure, I decided
on my own that I was no longer going to take all the pills
prescribed to me. Although I went against doctor orders, I felt
like the drugs were having a more negative impact on my life
than good. Eventually, I met an individual who taught me how to
use stretch bands to build my muscles and regain muscular
coordination. Soon thereafter, my nerves started kickstarting
and I soon had the ability to walk again. Time seemed to drag by
as I slowly began to be able to manipulate things more
efficiently with my arms and hands. By the power of faith and an
undeniable willpower to survive, I did.
I could've laid in that hospital bed that evening when I almost
died and allowed death to succumb, but I CHOSE life over death.
For the first time in a very long time, I wanted to live -- at
all costs. After months of physical, emotional, spiritual and
mental transformations, I found myself back in the workforce. It
was administrative work, but I was actually getting around and
feeling great. But physical episodes still haunted me and led me
back to the homefront.
I discovered a powerful force within myself during times of my
greatest, disabling moments in life. One of them being that I
geared my thoughts toward literature. Suddenly, I was being
published in anthologies and the Who's Who of World Poetry. Then
came my own book of inspirational poetry. Time, although
unforgiving, allowed healing to occur in more ways than one.
Suddenly, I was propelled into volunteer work where my
literature was being used for National tributes, monuments and
charitable organizations. Suddenly, I was doing the things that
God had intended me to do -- write. And write, I did.
Do I still have the physical disabilities? Yes. Do I still go
numb and see double? Yes I do. But what I've found through my
own shortcomings is that there is an unexplored abundance of
hope, transformation and opportunities -- that before lay
stagnant in the pools of yesterday's bittersweet sorrow. Are you
living life to your fullest human potential? Seek within
yourself for strength, perserverence and inner faith -- the rest
(c) 2003 LadyCamelot