Vistas

The other day I found myself frustrated with the slow progress on my new project. Other people involved, subcontractors, just 'weren't getting it'. Why couldn't they just see what needed to be done and do it? Why was everything taking so long?

I decided that the best thing for me to do was take a breather, so I went with my dog, Sultain, for a hike up the mountainside. As I am huffing and puffing up a 1000 feet of climb, even the dog is panting, I am mentally reviewing the 'to do' list I have to get through for the launch of seLFTech. It is clear to me that I am not going to make the self-imposed deadline of the end of January because of delays caused by other people.

Then suddenly, it occurs to me that I am falling into the trap of assessing blame instead of accepting responsibility. I am also allowing anger and resentment to prevent me from enjoying this moment.

Here I am, with my dog, going for our favorite walk up the side of a mountain to a spectacular vista and I am not even mentally present. What a waste! So, I make the effort and clear my mind to focus on just enjoying the moment.

Suddenly, a little ditty starts playing in my mind. Usually this kind of thing is an annoyance; some stupid ad jingle or meaningless song lyric that won't go away. This time, this is what I have going on in that tape loop