Joshian Meditations (i.e. Superultramodern Meditations)

In my philosophical journey ( and having believed to have demystified most of the greatest mysteries of the universe ) I have now arrived at a groundbreaking thought. Two strangest ideas are responsible for my arrival, the ideas that are ultimately related to the idea of creation. 1. I cannot deny the necessity of creation for each and every aspect / element of the non-eternal universe, i.e. the form of the universe (generally known as material) that is not logically necessary. However, this inability of denial necessarily leads me to the idea of ultimate creation, the idea whose invalidity I cannot deny. 2. Now I attend the following idea by Don Zagier ( 1951 - ) in his inaugural lecture at Bonn University, put in this way : 'There are two facts about the distribution of prime numbers which I hope to convince you. ... The first is that despite their simple definition and role as the building blocks of the natural numbers, the prime numbers...grow like weeds among the natural numbers, seeming to obey no other law than that of chance, and nobody can predict where the next one will sprout. The second fact is even more astonishing, for it states just the opposite : that the prime numbers exhibit stunning regularity, that there are laws governing their behaviour, and that they obey these laws with almost military precision.' Based on this idea if I form a supposition that even the order and disorder of prime numbers is a matter of creation then it goes in contradiction with my belief that all aspects or elements of the eternal universe, i.e. the form of the universe ( generally known as ideal or conceptual ) that is logically necessary, had no creation; the belief whose invalidity / falsehood I cannot apprehend. These two ideas altogether lead me to following three possible conclusions stated in the ascending order of likelihood. 1. Universe operates in a quite unknown manner. However, some or all of its secrets shall one day be discovered by human/s. 2. Some or perhaps all of the truths of the universe are forever unknowable to humans. Human reasoning is fundamentally flawed. 3. Reason itself is flawed. That is, no thought/s or reasoning ( not mere human but rather of any possible kind ) can ( rightly / accurately ) describe at least some of the aspects of the universe. However, respecting the first possibility I have decided not to give up and thus I shall continue my journey to try to understand the nature of the universe. [ What is it that I can know for certain ? The answer is 'nothing'. Because the fundamental principle of universal doubt : 'Anything may be possible', for that which is believed to be 100 % certain at present may be because of the limited intellectual capacities of the believer, prohibits me from even ascertaining / believing my own existence ( I feel therefore I am. ) with absolute ( i.e. 100 % ) certainty. ] - Dr Kedar Joshi, BSc MA DSc DA, Cambridge, UK.