Moment and moments - Part II
How do you embrace and resolve parts of yourself that cause
discomfort? The first step is recognizing that none of the
Essence that is You is bad, good, or anything else other than
just being. You are, and being You is enough validation. I am
not talking about actions and/or responses to Experience. I am
referring to the Essence that is You. Responses are not You.
You are validated, just as You are.
Begin by looking at the spectra (dimensions) of thoughts,
emotions, beliefs, and knowledge that you have concluded is you.
Deciding that some of these are bad and others are good is no
different than looking at a spectrum of visible light and
deciding that certain colors, or wavelengths, are displeasing,
and others are pleasing. These distinctions add more parameters,
or dimensions, to Experience.
Further, dividing Experience up by making distinctions is an
example of the dimensionalizing of Experience. This is the cause
of complications, complexity, problems, and the need for
solutions to them. The process can become addictive, leading to
a repetitive spiral into ever-greater complexity.
By contrast, think about how it feels to regard all of the
wavelengths as equally acceptable. Doing this is what will
enable the embracing. The next step is the realization that not
all of how you experience yourself is reflective or symbolic of
Reality; some is reflective or symbolic of illusion. This
illusion in Experience is whatever is incongruent with Reality.
Limitlessness, which is also known as Infinity, is Reality. The
realization of what is illusion and what is Reality is at the
heart of discovering who you really are.
Anything that is not Reality can be resolved into Reality.
The practical means of accomplishing the resolution of illusion
into Reality is the reduction of the dimensionality of
Experience. This process is what I call catiteration, and is
done internally as you perceive and respond to Experience.
This word, "catiteration", is formed by adding the prefix
"cat-", meaning to break down or reduce, to the word
"iteration", meaning the repeating of a process. Practical
catiteration, in the context of this writing, means the removal
of distinguishing characteristics, or parameters, governing your
perception of, and response to, Experience. Iteration is
appropriate because the process through which you dimensionalize
Experience is a repetitive process that you have learned and
applied throughout your life.
An example would be to look at an aspect of Experience that you
have, in the past, decided was evil. To catiterate this, you
would decide to allow Experience to be just as it is, without
adding the value evil to that aspect of Experience, neither in
perception nor in emotional response. If your response to evil
was fear before you chose to do this practice, then afterwards,
fear would no longer be your response. In fact, you would not
perceive evil anymore, either. Most importantly, you may still
decide not to do what in your past was iterated as evil, but you
would have no internal emotional or intellectual ties. This is
what catiteration, or decreasing the dimensionality of
Experience, means.
Why would you want to decrease the dimensionality of Experience?
Isn't that dimensionality the richness of Experience?
The multidimensionality is obscuring who you really are, which
results in the proliferation of a seemingly endless parade of
problems that require your time, energy, and attention to solve.
While you are busy trying to solve problems, or worrying about
them, you have little or no energy left for self-realization.
The resolution of illusion into Reality, or catiteration, is
extremely vital in Path Process for you because it is the only
genuine solution to your problems. You will learn that it also
provides sustenance for your Path Process via reclaimed energy
(otherwise known as taking your energy back). This reclaimed
energy is what was used, originally, to dimensionalize
Experience in the first place.
Another example of catiteration can be derived from the
experience of driving to the office. Heavy traffic and drivers
lacking presence of mind can make this trip quite stressful. To
catiterate this, begin by recalling the thoughts and feelings
associated with a calm, unobstructed drive down the same
highway. Next, look at the thoughts and responses you have when
a driver swerves in front of you and then slams on the brakes.
This is all Experience, and if you must add qualifiers to it,
such as "unfair", "inconsiderate" and "wrong", and/or emotions
such as anger, rage, or frustration, you have added dimensional
distinctions to make it so. Remove those distinctions as well as
the "positive" distinctions you've associated with the calm,
unobstructed drive, and you have catiterated both cases. Your
mental and emotional response should then be the same in both
instances by catiteration.
Being in Moment is an ongoing practice, not something to master
and then ignore. Today you will be closer to true Awareness in
Moment than you were yesterday, and next week you will be even
closer than you are today, and next year . . .
The ultimate experience of being in Moment is focusing Awareness
on Awareness itself, not just on the sensory, mental, or
emotional responses you are experiencing in present time. The
very essence of the spiritual Path is to realize and know who
you really are. You must observe and Experience what transcends
the beliefs, perceptions, and other illusions that are part of
space/time Experience. What transcends space/time is your very
Essence, that which is Aware and Experiencing this life you are
living.
In a deeper sense, being in Moment in present time still
contains elements of illusion, which is defined as anything that
is not congruent with who you really are and what all really is.
So, the truest experience of being in Moment must be pure
Awareness of Awareness itself. This state is the one that is
most likely to be equated with a deep meditative state. It is an
intense presence without thought or emotion, and a complete
sense of embracing and yet surrendering simultaneously. You are
literally focused on You as Awya, with no dimensional
distinctions.
With practice, you can continue the exercise of being in Moment
even while you are going about your daily activities. This is
possible because your inner focus remains on You while you allow
your in-physical limited self capabilities to engage in the
space/time activity. You remain Aware of the space/time action,
but you do not respond to it with dimensional iteration as in
making value judgments or other distinctions.