Out of the closet!
Out of the closet! - By Joseph Ghabi
We may sometimes consider the difficulty that occurs with our
acceptance of ourselves and of who we are in accordance with the
expectations of others. Do you understand what I am talking
about? Or am I speaking alone here?
I grew up in an environment dominated with the influence of the
Catholic religion, and studied in the field of Engineering and
Computer Science. With these factors in mind, I grew to become a
natural skeptic, without realization. Any circumstance or
opinion, which I encountered in respect to spirituality, would
be considered with the analytical and skeptical mind that I had
developed, in accordance to the environmental influences that I
had grown up with. In addition to my natural reaction of
analyzing situations or circumstances that I was faced with in
my life experience, I found the result to be a contradiction of
terms. There was always one thing that exceeded my capacity to
analyze or scrutinize. There was always something missing in my
life. Something that I realized existed beyond any of my
analytical means.
Holding an engineering degree did not alter any stance in my
life by any means. Throughout my life I encountered very
interesting people that introduced me to the spiritual aspects
of life, without making me feeling imposed upon. I was merely
listening and observing at this point on my particular
experience.
Over 10 years ago, specific events occurred that drove me to
further investigate the significance of my spiritual path, and
to discover my blueprint in life. My first step was learning
about meditation. I was faced with no alternative but to accept
this and try the new method without analyzing the process.
When I realized, in the beginning, that it was essential to be
in touch with my female side, it left me (like any man)
questioning this in terms of an affront on my masculinity.
Masculinity being the main focus for concern! Of course as men,
in general, we have this additional obstacle to overcome when
being involved in spirituality. However, I believe we make a
bigger issue out of this than is necessary.
We do have our ego, our manhood, and finally the aspect I feel
to be the most important, that many men are denying any
involvement in spirituality when they assume that opening their
female side is associated with being gay. This is not the case.
Its association with our sexual direction in life, and whatever
sexual partner we choose in our life, is of our own free choice
and free will.
Opening the female side within our manhood allows the opening
of' intuition' or our 'sixth sense' so to speak. This also
applies to any female who requires developing her masculine side
to bring strength to her decisions and to her level of
assertiveness. However, with these requirements in mind, the
important thing here can be summarized in one word for both the
male and female - BALANCE - harmony between the male and female
sides. There are so many gifted men out there that refuse to
accept the spiritual side of their nature and create unnecessary
inhibitions that exist only in their minds.
Throughout the last 10 years, I have developed myself
spiritually by means of studying meditation, learning healing
from my own guides, learning astrology, and palmistry until I
discovered numerology, the subject upon which my new awareness
about the Universe will start...
In the last ten years I have learnt a great deal, however, I was
always "in the closet" and here I am now stepping "out of the
closet"! On "stepping out of the closet", I am allowing myself
the capacity to be completely open with myself, and enabling
myself to express my beliefs to the public, bearing in mind, I
am still involved in the 'so-called' business world with my
regular day job.
Until next time...
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