Leaving The Child Behind. Recovery From Child Abuse.
I looked at my father for the last time before he was finally
laid to rest. And I said to myself, "I forgive you father". I
have forgiven him but I have not forgotten the turmoil, terror
and abuse that I went through. My father was working away most
of the time when I was growing up. But when he was home, he was
violent. I remembered crying in the middle of the night
listening to him beating up my mother. I could hear her sobs.
And I wept because I could not do anything about it. I was
terrified of him. We were not supposed to do any thing wrong
according to his terms. When I was six years old he pushed my
head so hard onto the floor. I still have the scar on my
forehead. When my mother was diagnosed with depression, the four
of us siblings had to move and we lived with him. He hired
someone to take care of us while he was away at work. There was
so much fear in us when he was back. My father was so angry with
one of my brother