GOD IS MY GUIDE
'Dear God, thank you for healing my life. I open myself up to
receive the love and the guidance that you give me, so that I
might be an example of peace, truth and unconditional love for
my family and the world around me.'
I said variations of this prayer for a very long time. I wanted
my family to feel whole and I knew it had to start with me. I
knew before I could love them unconditionally, I had to heal the
turmoil inside of me. I discovered over time that as I followed
God's path and grew in my truth, it has allowed my family to
grow, too.
A year-and-a-half ago I picked up a tape at the library by
Deepak Chopra regarding the seven levels of consciousness. The
levels start with innocence, then move on to the ego, to the
achiever, to the seeker, and on into different levels of union
consciousness. My gut told me the tape was for my husband,
Steve, to see.
Steve watched the tape, got very emotional and then told me he
no longer wanted to be an achiever. He wanted to be a seeker of
truth. He wanted to take time off and let everything go. Some
might have called this a mid-life crisis...he is a FEW years
older than me... but what we both knew was that he wanted to
find his purpose and inner peace.
I was thrilled for about a split second until he said, "I want
to let everything go. I want to sell the house."
Yikes! Be careful what you ask for. I had prayed for some time
that Steve would find inner peace. I just didn't know it was
going to shake up my world so much. He wanted to get rid of my
home. So much for my world of peace and stability!
As always, God works in beautiful, wondrous ways. I finally got
past my tears and fears and agreed that this would be the best
path for us to take. We sold our house without it ever going on
the market, for full price I might add, and then found ourselves
on an adventure that we would have never imagined.
We thought me wanted to move to the country, but then found
ourselves confused because the television industry was revealing
itself to me as an avenue to share my message. We decided to
stay in Southern California, but had no idea where we would
live. We knew we wanted to rent a home, but soon discovered it
to be very difficult to find one that was big enough for our
whole family, including our little Maltese. Then, out of the
blue, a realtor called us and said, "I heard you decided to stay
here for awhile. I just sold a home to a man who has now decided
to go abroad. It is five years old, has four bedrooms, three
baths and is five blocks from the beach. He would like a family
to rent it. Would you be interested?"
Would we be interested? We couldn't believe our good fortune.
For the next year-and-a-half we realized it wasn't just good
fortune, but it was God guiding us and taking care of us. We set
an intention for ourselves that we were fully surrendering to
God, so that we might live for the highest good, bringing light
and love into the world.
The adventure became a roller coaster ride of ups and downs. One
of the things Steve most wanted to do in his time off was to
escape and spend time on our boat. It had been in Mexico for
several years and his first intention was to bring it back up to
Southern California. Well, wouldn't you know it, just a few
hours from making its way home, the boat caught on fire and sunk
to the bottom of the ocean. Steve was devastated. I knew there
had to be a gift.
That gift soon revealed itself by showing us that Steve wasn't
allowed to escape on the boat. He had set an intention to find
himself, so the universe said, "Ugh, ugh. No escaping for you."
Then we lost our butts in the stock market. A big part of our
nest egg was there. That was scary. Steve had to start looking
at his limiting beliefs as the protector and provider of the
family. My work had yet to take off and so therefore we really
didn't have an income. We prayed for guidance. People began to
call offering us great investment opportunities. We were
tentative to make the deals for it meant we had to dip into our
nest egg. We prayed for signs to show us what to do. We received
the messages we needed, sometimes within a day, and made the
investments. They soon revealed themselves as gifts from God.
Steve and I quickly learned that when we turned our worries over
to God, we were provided for.
Every time money got tight, we both prayed for God to guide us
and every time we were given a gift. We both learned from this
that when your heart has an intention to sit in truth and to be
love, the universe wants to help you in any way it can. If you
need more abundance and financial assistance and believe that
you are worthy of receiving this kind of love, then it will come
to you, very easily without any effort. The only effort you have
to do is to have the courage to open up and get to know you.
That's what Steve did. He finally got the courage to open up to
the truth. As a result he discovered that he doesn't have to buy
into those protector/provider pictures anymore. God is the
protector and the provider.
This has been an intense time of healing and learning for both
Steve and me. As I have watched him grow, I have had to learn to
be neutral to his process and realize what his limiting beliefs
are and what mine are. But because we have both looked for the
gift in every situation during this time, whether it seemed bad
or good, we have grown closer with each other and with God.
Steve and I are so excited to see God working in our lives as
individuals and as a couple. We see life unfolding before us. My
work is taking off right at the perfect time and right when I'm
ready for it. And Steve has a new company. He is one of the
owners of ConsciousOne.com, along with an amazing group of
individuals whose intention is to bring peace and love into the
world.
Steve decided to take a step into truth a year-and-a-half- ago
and, as a result, I found more of my own. And even though it got
scary at times due to not knowing where the adventure was going,
we stayed in our intentions to be love and light. What we found
was a greater love than we've ever known.
Terri Amos is a spiritual coach, motivational speaker,
wife, mother and step-mom. It was on her path to self-discovery,
self-acceptance, and true authenticity that Terri was guided
through meditation to share the knowledge she was experiencing
first hand in a unique journal that is spiritual, practical,
revelatory and prescriptive. Titled, Message Sent, the book
chronicles her day-to-day journey of challenges and healing with
love, candor and humor. In addition, she offers the reader the
benefit of her insight and inspirations and shares the tools she
found helpful to herself.