Passion's Search for Destiny
She was haunted by a man whom she had never met. He came to her
in her dreams. It was not just a reoccurring dream about some
random Prince Charming archetype. This guy had flaws, he was
just as mixed up and lost as she was. She would wake up from a
dead sleep to the sound of his voice whispering in her ear,
"Look out the window." She would argue in her half asleep
stupor, "Be quiet! I'm sleeping!" Again, he would whisper, "Look
out the window." She would eventually drag herself up from the
cozy comfort of her bed to gaze out the window. There was the
full moon big and beautiful. It magically called to her from
somewhere in the back of her soul's oldest memories.
She could feel him there, her ghostly suitor. She knew that if
she spun around quickly, he would be standing there behind her,
but every time she turned, there was nothing there but silence
and darkness. Somewhere in the recesses of her mind, she could
hear him silently promising, "Wait for me... I'll find you if
it's the last thing I do." She would toss and turn for the rest
of the night feeling his intense presence and wrestling with the
fact that he wasn't 'real'.
As the years went on, she would learn that he did not know her
name and that he called her Destiny. She began to call him
Passion. She was not allowed to search for him. She was to sit
still and wait. It was part of the game, part of the agreement.
His challenge for this lifetime was to search for his Destiny.
After all, what is Passion without Destiny? He had to learn how
to recognize her. She had to learn how to wait in blind faith
that he would find her. Both had to live real lives with real
mates. Neither could shake the very real belief that the other
one existed somewhere out there.
How many times would she convince herself that the man standing
in front of her was her Passion? How many times would it not be
true? How would she know when it was finally him? How many women
would he mistake for her? Would Passion and Destiny burn out and
give up, writing it all off as just some figment of their
imaginations? Do soulmates really exist? Or are we looking for
an impossible ideal?
A soulmate is not just someone that you love from the depth of
your soul. They are not just someone that you have a karmic
connection with. They are not just someone that you want to
spend the rest of your life with. They are someone you miss
hanging out with before you have even met. They are the one that
upon first meeting you simply sigh in relief and say, "Ah there
you are, I've been waiting for you." There is no questioning, no
'getting to know you' stage. You have known them for all of
eternity. You may want to share stories of your journeys and how
you came to find each other, but you already 'know' them as well
as you know yourself. You see yourself in their eyes. You
understand them on a soul level because you share the same
source.
Unfortunately, it is not always a blissful experience. Most of
us are not ready to meet our other halves because we are not
even ready to look ourselves in the mirror. Until you can truly
love and accept yourself, then you will not be able to love and
accept your soulmate. They are not some fantasy person sent to
save you from the ups and downs of real life. They will not make
your life a magic perfect delight. They will simply love you on
a level that is unlike any other.
If you do not hear the call of a long lost soulmate, count
yourself as blessed. You have the freedom to love anyone you
choose. You get to make any kind of match that pleases you. Do
not try to force a soulmate relationship. Be content in knowing
that you are exactly where you are supposed to be, doing exactly
what you are meant to do.
If on the other hand, you do hear your Passion calling, or you
see Destiny in your dreams, then my prayers go out to you my
dear. For yours is that path of finding the proverbial needle in
a haystack. Don't ask me to tell you if they're worth the hunt.
Can you bring yourself to give up the hunt even if you tried?
Only you can gauge your ability to silence that cosmic voice
calling you to hold out for that certain person that only you
will recognize. Only you know what it's going to take to find
them. Perhaps the angels will smile upon the two of you and help
with some old fashioned happenstance. Perhaps you will
telepathically connect and find your way to each others' arms.
Perhaps you were just meant to experience the longing. Perhaps
you will go through some bad relationships first so that when
you find your Destiny, she'll be that much sweeter and more
appreciated. Nobody knows for sure how it will play out. But I
believe that on some level, deep down, you know.
Did you already meet your soulmate and choose to walk away from
each other? Was the intensity too much? Did it scare you? Was it
overwhelming? Was it too hard? Will you have a second chance
with them later down the road? Will you miss them forever? Yeah,
probably. Will you learn something about unconditional love from
them? Yeah, probably.
Did you find each other and recognize they shared the same soul
as you? Did you hold on tight? Count yourselves as the very rare
and incredibly blessed. Cherish the gift of finding yourself in
another's eyes and seeing just how beautiful you are.
Copyright 2004, Skye Thomas, Tomorrow's Edge