Rember The Love
These last few days have been for me, a dark night of the soul.
Every belief I held, every truth I thought I knew and every
answer I had, have all been shattered.
And even though I was surrounded by people, I felt alone,
abandoned and afraid.
And yet, through all of it, I also felt higher, as though
someone or something were carrying me, lifting me, loving me.
And so this time instead of running from the pain, despair and
confusion, I embraced it and what happened surprised me. The
pain, despair and confusion became my doorway to freedom. All
sorts of insights and inspirations flooded into my
consciousness. It was as though I had access to a different time
and place and was able to see with new eyes.
I have been searching for the truth all of my life in so many
places. I thought there was only one truth and that I came here
to find that truth and that if I went to enough seminars and
took enough courses and read enough books and did enough
affirmations that somehow I would find it.
Enough, enough, enough already! It was never enough. I was never
enough. And now I have found myself in this place and I realized
that ...
No one can tell you what your truth is or how to get there. They
can only soften the path a little. But if you are awake and
alive, there will come a time when you will have to examine your
own heart.
During this time, I thought often of Mother Teresa and what a
powerful woman she was, yet without the arrogance that one often
finds in powerful people. She was able to command large amounts
of money from everywhere and yet she was so humble. She didn't
need to be the best at anything, she just needed to BE. Simple
and profound. She touched countless lives and changed the world
one person at a time.
I have an act of kindness section on my website and for the last
7 years have been putting acts of kindness suggestions on one of
my daily pages. This morning as I was thinking of Mother Teresa
again, I sat down to my computer and these words flowed from my
fingertips and onto the screen.
Whatever you do today, remember ONE thing. That in the end, all
that really matters is the LOVE! Did you seek it? Did you find
it? But most importantly - DID YOU GIVE IT? Remember the LOVE!
And then I knew that was the truth I was looking for. Remember
the LOVE. Often in our quest for bigger and better things, we
forget why we came here in the first place. When my father died
and I was sitting on his doorstep outside waiting for the limo
to arrive to take me to his funeral, this was never more
apparent. There stood his beautiful house and car in silence. He
would never walk up those stairs and open that door again or sit
behind that wheel. But I could feel his presence. He was much
bigger than all of those things. His love was there forever. It
didn't die with him. The only thing we take with us when we
leave this place is the love and it doesn't matter if we die
with a slim body and a fat bank account. All that matters is the
love.
In remembering this, I came to know my truth. Perhaps we don't
come here to learn, perhaps we come here to teach. And the
secret to success is in the love. Then I recalled a story I
heard about a woman who hated her job and was living a joyless
life of struggle. Her heart was closed in pain, anger and
resentment. She was working as a cleaning lady. One day the old
woman she worked for put on some music on the stereo. It was
music that she and her late husband used to dance to. She was
missing her mate terribly and longing for the gentle touch of
another soul. The old woman asked the cleaning lady if she would
dance with her. The cleaning lady was a bit taken aback at first
but agreed to do so. And then something miraculous happened.
In opening her arms to the old woman, she also opened her heart
and the tears and the love began to flow. She let the love in
and in that precious moment that love lifted her spirit and
transformed her life. Right after this incident the cleaning
lady's business started to take off, she got so many calls she
had to hire a huge staff to accommodate everyone and her company
grew by leaps and bounds. The struggle disappeared and
everything that she had been trying to make happen came to her
effortlessly, once her heart had been opened.
In remembering this story, I knew that I had found my truth. The
secret to success and the secret to life is in the love. Once I
knew that, I knew everything.