While I wasn't sleeping again...
While I wasn't sleeping again... August 2004 p.j.f
It's 3 AM now. I am still wide awake. It has been a an hour now
since I laid in my bed. An hour with my eyes closed was not yet
enough to put me to sleep. Perhaps it is because my joy at this
very moment is overwhelming. And thus I decided to come up with
a follow-up of the piece I wrote last year entitled "While I
wasn't sleeping".
About a year ago. The piece ended with these lines.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Am I
still capable of falling in love? Do I have get to have a second
chance for true love? Or will I be bound by the saying that " in
a lifetime, you only find one true love" ? Does that mean that
true love would be a lovely memory? Or will I be able to meet
someone again that I would be able to share true love with?
Questions, questions, questions... When will I find the
answers... I do not know...
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After a year, those questions were answered in the person of a
very wonderful lady. Her name is Dinah Magdalene. She has
changed my life so much even though she has been a part of my
life only for a little while. She is the reason why I always
wake up in the morning with a smile. She has made me feel alive.
She is the person that keeps me awake at night because all I
could see is her face even with my eyes closed. She is the
reason why I am able to write inspiring pieces, why I could sing
songs of the heart, why I have suddenly become creative again.
She's my reason why despite a difficult, stressful day I manage
to flash a smile. She makes me want to be a better man. Nobody
brings me happiness like she does. And I love her more than
words could say, more than the whole world could ever convey.
Now I know who's the answer. She is the answer to the question
in my heart...
"Am I still capable of falling in love?" Because of her I found
my heart is beating once again. God made her as instrument to
enable me to be in love again. He has enabled my heart to long
for love again.
"Do I have get to have a second chance for true love?" God has
given me a second chance on love. And I am very much grateful to
Him for that chance. And I will not let go of the chance that
God has given me as this maybe the last chance that He would
give me on love.
"Or will I be able to meet someone again that I would be able to
share true love with?" I was able to meet someone that I would
want to share my love with. Someone that my heart longs for.
Someone that I truly care for. Someone that I hold dear. Someone
that I always want to be with. Someone that give me the vision
of the man I want to become.
"It's amazing how one person can change your life forever."
I found my anwers to my questions. Though it took about a year
to have those questions answered. Nevertheless they were still
answered.
I hope you find the answer to your questions too. God bless.