What are we really arguing about?
You are standing in the bedroom, looking at someone you thought
you knew. All of a sudden, you see your mother, or your father.
You hear their words coming out of someone else's mouth. They
trigger old reactions, based on potent relationship dynamics
that have no business in your bedroom or in your current
relationship. Yet, it is wonderful that such old triggers are
stimulated. Why? Because anything that a new relationship
triggers based on an old one, mirrors to us a part of ourselve
we lost or suppressed in the old relationship.
Even harder to deal with is when this loving, sweet person we
married or chose intimacy with....the one that's nothing like
us.....speaks out our own dark side feelings, fears or doubts.
We want them to shut up, may even tell them to shut up, which
only infuriates us more. Why? Because, in reality, we're telling
ourselves to shut up!
So what would be the healthy choice, the spiritual high road,
the next time we see our Grandmother's stern glare or our
brother's bullying stance, overlay the face of our partner?
The first step would be to recognize those faces from your past.
Maybe you are only aware that no one on earth (with the
exception of members of your immediate family) can push your
emotional hot buttons quite as quickly or intensely as your most
intimate relationship.
I f you look closely, and you are able to short-circuit the
emotional roller-coaster of action-reaction long enough, you
will probably see another face pop out, just like one of those
3-D pictures.
Sometimes, the face that pops up or overlays isn't even from
this lifetime but that's another article altogether.
The truth, as I see it, is that our most intimate relationships
are those that most closely mirror either our own most
challenging aspects of personality (the parts of ourselves that
we try not to own), and/or the aspects of one or more of our
core family group. We unconsciously choose these mirrors because
our Soul knows that these unresolved issues from our past are
the very issues that keep us from progressing and growing.
Our most intimate relationships, those within which we allow
ourselves the most vulnerability, offer us wonderful
opportunities for spiritual growth, sharing, learning and
healing the past. When two people come together with spiritual
awareness that enables them to fully know and expect that each
will trigger the other into looking at challenges that impede
growth and acceleration, and when each is fully committed to
healing themselves, the relationship can be a catalyst for
transformation in both. On the other hand, if the ego maintains
control, relationships deteriorate into battles of will which
can distract both people from their spiritual path for years, or
even for life.
Check your level of personal honesty Intimate
relationships, in particular those involving a commitment of
marriage, require a great deal of personal honesty to work to
the highest potential. Since it is difficult for many of us to
completely trust another human being, to the extent that we can
allow ourselves to be completely vulnerable, the relationship
becomes a symbol of our relationship to God. I believe that the
extent to which we can merge with another is an exact indication
of the extent to which we can merge with God. In developing
trust, respect, honor, and faith with another human being, we
are working out a deeper relationship with Godforce.
If you can consider the idea that relationships are mirrors, and
that part of the responsibility of being in one is to clear and
heal past hurts, release limiting beliefs based on past
experience, and open the heart that has been closed by past
damage, then it is easy to see why our closest relationships are
the most challenging. If one of the partners doesn't want the
lesson presented, it makes for a tedious path. If both resist,
it is an exercise in futility and a choice to walk through life
in chaos and conflict. Though it is hard to believe anyone would
make that choice, the reality is that many of us find it easier
to argue and defend our position than to get to the bottom of
what is really bothering us.
In our most intimate relationships, many of us are finding that
we can no longer insinuate, imply or suggest what we mean. At a
certain point, telepathic communication between two people
becomes so strong that any dishonesty or hedging will only add
fuel to the fire of the ego and make trust harder to accomplish.
If you doubt this, think how many times you complete each
other's sentence or know when something is bothering the other
person, even though they may have said nothing directly.
For healthy relationships, direct and honest communications
ultimately become imperative, and no where are they more
important than in our most intimate, close relationships. We
must begin to say what we mean, and mean what we say.
Of course, the other side of communication involves listening.
For many of us, the mental activities are so active that we have
to re-learn how to hear what someone is saying to us. Listening
is a fine art, almost a lost art. To complete the circle of
clear communication, we must be willing to hear what our partner
is saying, apart from any immediate response we might wish to
insert.
Learning to let someone completely "have their say" without
interruption is a challenge in this fast-paced, action-oriented
society, but it is crucial to good relationships. It has been my
experience that, as long as I am mentally defending my position,
I hear very little of what the other person is trying to say.
Portions of this article excerpted from Moon Lodge Visions: An
Acceleration Handbook, available free on request at Spiritual
Empowerment Resources